Reading @ Freefall by Joseph Stiglitz amazing book regarding the financial crisis which began in 2007, but also its underlying causes, and shows why much more radical reforms areneeded than are currently being contemplated if we are to avoid similar "systemic" crises in future.

The year kept me busy and on toes all the time , so had no time to write . anyhow there was not much to write about also. I was going through a roller coaster ride all the year. My relationship with a women was centrifugal point for most of the mid year... I was twisted in between my heart and my brain.. was jealous and was in lots of pain. the year is ending am still in confusion about the same. well a friend told me that when you cant help yourself then leave it to HIM....that's exactly am doing regarding the issue. In November i lost my Mother , sudden departure of her has created a void which cant be filled by anyone....My whole life has come to a stand still . its very hard to overcome a loss of this magnitude but am trying . Now i have to look after my ageing father and house and also work...suddenly i cant rely on anyone or take anyone granted.... well life is teaching me some hard lessons....

The year started with a quite note , Oscar is going strong and will be turning a year old this coming march….his day to day activities are also getting naughtier day by day… last week he chewed my running shoe…. Now he wants to sleep on my bed … I have no clue how to take care of his naughtiness… I guess he is pampered by love…. Animals have this strange way of returning love back to you… the way he looks at me….his cute eyes looking at me as if letting me know that he care…..As of my personal life am still single trying to figure out what to do about the way I feel for commitments …… I hope to find someone to share this emptiness I have inside me….life is so easy and boring without a soul mate…. If last year was a struggle this year has more to handle …….life in itself is a continuous struggle….hope I succeed…...

"This is LIFE. "
It gives you back everything you say or do.
Our life is simply a reflection of our actions.
If you want more love in the world, create more love in your heart.
This relationship applies to everything, in all aspects of life;
Life will give you back everything you have given to it."

Last year when Bruno died my life was shattered, I never thought that the void will be fulfilled by anyone....then in march 2008 I was feeling very restless and decided to look for another companion.....though I knew that he cannot be replacement for my baby, but then life goes on ........ so the hunt led me to this adorable and cute golden retriever pup latter named Oscar......as soon as I lay my eyes on him , wanted to bring him home..............................now he is nine months old..........a reason for me to come back to the place I call HOME............................

"Nothing is given to man on earth - struggle is built into the nature of life, and conflict is possible - the hero is the man who lets no obstacle prevent him from pursuing the values he has chosen."

"But there is suffering in life, and there are defeats. No one can avoid them. But it's better to lose some of the battles in the struggles for your dreams than to be defeated without ever knowing whatyou're fighting for."

"Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength."

"Life has meaning only in the struggle. Triumph or defeat is in the hands of the Gods. So let us celebrate the struggle!"

"Whatever the struggle, continue the climb. It may be only one step to the summit."

"Success is sweet and sweeter if long delayed and gotten through many struggles and defeats."

"Opportunity follows struggle. It follows effort. It follows hard work. It doesn't come before."

"Unfortunately this earth is not. . . a fairy-land, but a struggle for life, perfectly natural and therefore extremely harsh."

"When bad men combine, the good must associate; else they will fall one by one, an unpitied sacrifice in a contemptible struggle."

" He who would live must fight, he who will notfight in this world where eternal struggle isthe law of life, has not the right to exist.? "

"The life of man is a struggle on earth. But without a cross, without a struggle, we get nowhere. The victory will be ours if we continue our efforts courageously, even when at times they appear futile."

"I have had to fight like hell and fighting like hell has made me what I am."

"To have striven, to have made the effort, to have been true to certain ideals - this alone is worth the struggle."

"Once all struggle is grasped, miracles are possible."

"Living in the favorable and unfavorable situation is called Part of living. But, smiling in all those situations is called Art of living.

"There is only one difference between dream and aim. Dream requires Soundless sleep to see,Where as Aim Requires Sleepless Efforts to Achieve."

Horror gripped the heart of a World War-I soldier, as he saw his lifelong friend fall in battle. The soldier asked his Lieutenant if he could go outto bring his fallen comrade back."You can go," said the Lieutenant, "but don't think it will be worth it .Your friend is probably dead and you may throw your life away."
The Lieutenant's words didn't matter, and the soldier went anyway.Miraculously, he managed to reach his friend, hoisted him onto his shoulder and brought him back to their company's trench.The officer checked the wounded soldier, then looked kindly at his friend." I told you it wouldn't be worth it," he said. "Your friend is dead andyou are mortally wounded.""It was worth it, Sir," said the soldier."What do you mean by worth it?" responded the Lieutenant."Your friend is dead.""Yes Sir," the soldier answered, "but it was worth it because when I got to him, he was still alive and Ihad the satisfaction of hearing him say......."
Man...I knew you would come

While coming back from nanittal - hill station , I Saw this man sitting on road side, asked my driver to stop the car, clicked his picture, I call this one "years gone by" the wrinkles on his face and the calmness about him is mesmerizing

Well after so many days I feel like writing , right now am sitting in a cafe , smoking a cigarette, sipping my 1st cup of coffee, and just wondering where my life is heading towards. The year 2007 is coming towards the end and my thoughts are about "what I gained and what I lost" in this year. Year endings always make me sad and retro septic .....this last year was a perpetual struggle. As such life in itself is a struggle... but 2007 was a year of endings and new beginning's.

I lost my dog in mid of the year.... a loss which is not replaceable, unconditional love that BRUNO gave for 10 years he livid with me cannot be replaced by anyone on this mother earth. That loss in itself wasn't enough that a relationship which I was trying to mend finally broke down in September, all efforts to revive it were fertile and final nail in the coffin was delivered in september. the irony of the situation was that the day my most important relation was ending, my parents were celebrating their 36th marriage anniversary. Here I was their son who could not last in a relation for more than 7 years and they lasted for 36...... well this is what i call life.

Now this year is coming to a end , I have lost whatever little i could call "mine", though I havent lost hope, as I strongly believe that if you have hope and desire, you can achive any goals set for yourself. With this postive mindset am looking forward to what 2008 has in store for me............

This is LIFE..............................................................................................................................................

APNEE AANKHON KI SAMUNDER MEIN UTER JAANEY DO ..

TEREE MUJRIM HUN MUJHEY DOOB KI MER JAANEY DEY .....

ZAKHM KITNEY TERE CHAHAT SE MILEY HAIN MUJHKO...

SOCHTEE HUN KAHUN TUJHSE?

MAGAR JAANEY DE.....

This is how someone recently affected my life.............................................

THIS PICTURE TAKEN AT ASAN LAKE IN HIMACHAL PRADESH

Bruno ( 1998 - 2007)

This post is in the sweet memory of my love , my baby, "Bruno" . The sweets soul i ever came across, a true companion, lover, friend . I dont have words for to describe him, brought him by fluke from a breader of dehradun in 1998 a 1.5 month old litter of dalmation parents. The cutest aminal I ever came across. He livid like a king of the palace, a small illness and i just lost him so untimely on this day of 16th july 2007. The greatest gift I could ever have, this is just a small tirbute i can write for a soul so kind and loving that a whole earth full of humans cannot replace him. My love , best friend, baby , who gave love so unconditionally that I will never be able to forget all my life. A void created by him can not be fullfilled by anyone till I live.

If only I could change....
I would....
If only I could....

This is what the Kevin Carter wrote: Dear God,I promise I will never waste my food no matter how bad it can taste and how full I may be. I pray that He will protect this little boy, guide and deliver him away from his misery. I pray that we will be more sensitive towards the world around us and not be blinded by our own selfish nature and interests. I hope this picture will always serve as a reminder to us that how fortunate we are and that we must never ever take things for granted. Please don't break.. keep on forwarding to our friends On this good day. Let's make a prayer for the suffering in anywhere anyplace around the globe and send this friendly reminder to others Think & look at this...when you complain about your food and the food we wasted daily........

Read b4 going for lunch, I found this as a forward, and I thought it would be appropriate to put it up here.The photo is the Pulitzer Prize winning photo taken in 1994 during the Sudan famine. The picture shows a famine stricken crawling towards a UN food camp located a kilometer away. The vulture is waiting for the child to die so that it can eat it. This picture shocked the whole world. No one knows what happened to the child, including the photographer Kevin Carter who left the place as soon as the photograph was taken. Three months later he commited suicide due to depression.

We'll do it all Everything On our own
We don't need Anything Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace To remind me To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Face your past without regret.
Handle your present with confidence.
Prepare for the future without fear.
Don't believe your doubts and never doubt your beliefs.
Life is wonderful if you know how to live it....................